a testimony

i really dislike having a blog and feel kind of embarrassed to have one, but sometimes it's nice to just type out my feeling/thoughts and put them somewhere.
since i'm leaving in less than a month (ha what ??), i thought it would be good to leave a last entry of something that is important to me. and that is my testimony.

i am thankful for my testimony. for the experiences and trials, the joys and the close to heaven moments that have made it what it is.
i think just like many, it came little by little- trial after trial, prayer after prayer, and verse after verse.
but it came, and when it came, i could not doubt the truthfulness of this gospel and it felt like i was home. like i finally came to know for myself and had reached the first "level" in a sense of my testimony and personal conversion.

first, trials. i am so thankful for them. it has been in these times of trouble where I have turned to my Father in Heaven for guidance and love. He always provides. And where I have leaned on my Savior because I was too weak, and He filled me with His love and peace. trials are so beautiful as they are the one thing that allows us to grow in an eternal way. not only is this life to grow and learn, but so is ETERNITY- and it is through these trials we grow! it is so hard to have faith in these times, but as you turn to our Father with a humble heart and a willingness to put your trust in Him and His plan for you and submit yourself to His will, you will be blessed. Father will always provide a way- He gave us a Savior.

the Book of Mormon is a book of truth. it is filled with all truth and light. it is here where we can receive divine answers we can not find anywhere else. it has provided me with a better understanding of the Goodness of our God and the atonement of our Savior. it is what has led me to ask if this church is true, and if the things written in its pages are true. i promise you that as you read it and have the desire to know for yourself, you will come to know of its truthfulness. and you will come to know the truthfulness of this gospel.

i have been given so much. i have recieved an eternal joy because of the gospel. i have felt the love of my Savior and Heavenly Father. 

This is everything to me.